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Narcissistic TTrauma Forever

It’s never over

We can adapt and live our lives. However, that is never over. There is no day we can say that is closed for good. I have become much stronger recently, but boy, that is not over. It’s like a scream from the depths of myself, screaming to get… Read More »It’s never over

The Glimpse of Trauma

I’ve experienced a weird phenomenon throughout my life. Very rare, but often enough not to go unnoticed. I am not even sure how to describe it…. It is a sudden, irrational sense of utter sadness, loneliness and pain. A completely unknown and yet so known and unnamed.

Narcissistic Pain

Who am I?

Even though I’m more aware I still don’t know who I am. Sometimes it feels that I am composed but this composition is not robust. Sometimes it’s solid and there are times when it is so fragile. When “it” comes it’s breaking apart again.  I think now I… Read More »Who am I?

The love misnomer

I have been so wrong all my life. Love is not about loving what is beautiful, perfect and pleasant. Love is being part of others. To die if they die. Loving them as we love ourselves. To feel their pain as ours. To love is to give.

What is evil?

Thousands of books and millions of words. Legends, religions, different cultures. What a waste. The truth I am revealing for you now. Here it comes. Lack of empathy, the need for control, pathological lying, sense of entitlement and superiority. That is it. Thanks. Bye.

What I could have been

The flower stepped upon. The love never given. The comfort never felt. The lies instead of truth. The reptiles in human disguise. Counterfeits, breadcrumbs. fakes and lies. The smell of rotting. The everlasting emptiness.

When it comes…

When it comes I am being taken to the times long forgotten. To testify the scenes I so wanted to forget. There are ones who also want it be forgotten, but it shall never be. The good angels are protecting the painful memories so I can wear the… Read More »When it comes…