We can adapt and live our lives. However, that is never over. There is no day we can say that is closed for good. I have become much stronger recently, but boy, that is not over. It’s like a scream from the depths of myself, screaming to get out. To get out and replay and repeat, replicate the same damn script again. No matter what I have achieved I am worthless. I am looking for ways to numb myself. If this is the drug, I am addicted and will always be. My heart was once devoured and never put together. No extra stitch can make it. Not a one.
People who have experienced narcissistic trauma, such as having a narcissistic parent or being in a relationship with a narcissistic partner, may often feel like they are not good enough. This can stem from the narcissistic individual’s tendency to constantly criticize, belittle, and invalidate the other person’s thoughts, feelings, and experiences.
The constant criticism and devaluation can damage the person’s self-esteem and sense of self-worth, leading them to believe that they are not good enough. They may feel like they are always falling short of the unrealistic expectations set by the narcissistic individual, and may struggle to feel confident and secure in their own worth and abilities.
If you have experienced narcissistic trauma and feel like you are not good enough, it can be helpful to seek support from a therapist or counselor who can help you work through these feelings and develop a more positive and healthy sense of self. It may also be beneficial to distance yourself from the narcissistic individual and surround yourself with supportive and caring people who can help you heal and rebuild your self-esteem.