I’d rather have a reptile mother. I’d rather have no mother at all. (I’d rather not exist…) Under a narcissistic mother you are doomed. You should have escaped, but how could you have? I always felt good among dogs. Never judged. Never felt ashamed. The woman I feel… Read More »On Narcissistic Mothers
I might not have been, but I am. I am not, but I might have. In the forest of my life, there is nothing left alive. I am a shadow among shadows. I am seeking for love, but I don’t find any. The dagger in my heart will… Read More »Shadows…
There is no more cruel act in a social environment be it among dogs, wolfs, monkeys, or humans – than abandoning. It triggers fear of death and is the grandest primal fear there is. To be abandoned means to be left to die. If your pack, or your… Read More »To abandon is a thrust with a dagger
We can adapt and live our lives. However, that is never over. There is no day we can say that is closed for good. I have become much stronger recently, but boy, that is not over. It’s like a scream from the depths of myself, screaming to get… Read More »It’s never over
I’ve experienced a weird phenomenon throughout my life. Very rare, but often enough not to go unnoticed. I am not even sure how to describe it…. It is a sudden, irrational sense of utter sadness, loneliness and pain. A completely unknown and yet so known and unnamed. Context… Read More »The Glimpse of Trauma
I’ve beaten the beast with thousand swords. I proudly remain no contact. My shield is my heart and my mind. We are those of the light. I shall never fail again! Context No contact is a strategy often used by individuals who have experienced narcissistic abuse to distance… Read More »I am standing still!
Even though I’m more aware I still don’t know who I am. Sometimes it feels that I am composed but this composition is not robust. Sometimes it’s solid and there are times when it is so fragile. When “it” comes it’s breaking apart again. I think now I… Read More »Who am I?
I have been so wrong all my life. Love is not about loving what is beautiful, perfect and pleasant. Love is being part of others. To die if they die. Loving them as we love ourselves. To feel their pain as ours. To love is to give. Context… Read More »The love misnomer
Thousands of books and millions of words. Legends, religions, different cultures. What a waste. The truth I am revealing for you now. Here it comes. Lack of empathy, the need for control, pathological lying, sense of entitlement and superiority. That is it. Thanks. Bye. Context Narcissism is a… Read More »What is evil?
The flower stepped upon. The love never given. The comfort never felt. The lies instead of truth. The reptiles in human disguise. Counterfeits, breadcrumbs. fakes and lies. The smell of rotting. The everlasting emptiness.