I've beaten the beast with thousand swords. I proudly remain no contact. My shield is my heart and my mind. We are those of the light. I shall never fail again! Context No contact is a strategy that people who have been the victims of narcissistic abuse frequently employ in order to distance themselves from the narcissistic individual who abused them and protect themselves from further harm. The term "

We are able to adjust and continue living our lives. Nevertheless, that never comes to an end. There is no day that we can say for certain that it is over and done with. Recent months have helped me become significantly stronger, but boy, that process is far from complete. It's like a scream coming from deep within me, pleading to be let out. To break the cycle of playing the same damn script over and over again, you need to replicate it.

I've experienced a weird phenomenon throughout my life. Very rare, but often enough not to go unnoticed. I am not even sure how to describe it.... It is a sudden, irrational sense of utter sadness, loneliness and pain. A completely unknown and yet so known and unnamed. Context Individuals who have been victims of narcissistic abuse frequently go through a variety of intense emotions, and feeling sad is a common reaction to the trauma that they have endured as a result of the abuse.

It has hit me again. I am a self-devouring animal, but all this is happening in my head. I am being punished by myself for all the things I have not done and all the things I have not been. All my value has been taken away and I have again not been good enough. I am hearing the same cruel voices again…. No contact.  Mother-reptile has been thrust with thousand swords.

The flower stepped upon. The love never given. The comfort never felt. The lies instead of truth. The reptiles in human disguise. Counterfeits, breadcrumbs. fakes and lies. The smell of rotting. The everlasting emptiness.

I've been so wrong my entire life. It is not enough to love what is beautiful, perfect, and pleasant. Love is being a part of something bigger than yourself. To perish if they perish. We love them as much as we love ourselves. To feel their anguish as if it were our own. Loving is giving. Context People who have narcissistic personality disorder frequently engage in behaviors that are known as "

When it comes I am being taken to the times long forgotten. To testify the scenes I so wanted to forget. There are ones who also want it be forgotten, but it shall never be. The good angels are protecting the painful memories so I can wear the shield and the sword when the day comes. Indifferent I am. Cold as stone. No more harm can be done to me. I abandon like I was once abandoned.

Countless books and millions of words. Legends, religions, and various cultures. What a squander. The truth I'm about to reveal to you. It's almost here. Lack of empathy, a need for control, pathological lying, a sense of entitlement, and a sense of superiority. That's all there is to it. Thanks. Bye. Context Narcissism is a personality disorder defined by a person's inability to empathize with others, their need for constant praise, and their own sense of superiority.

Even though I’m more aware I still don’t know who I am. Sometimes it feels that I am composed but this composition is not robust. Sometimes it’s solid and there are times when it is so fragile. When “it” comes it’s breaking apart again.  I think now I can finally answer the question once asked by my therapist. “What is that you really feel. Tell me one emotion. Name it!”. Now, I know – it’s shame.

Helen: In 1998, when I was 38 years old, I tied the knot with the narcissist who would become my husband of 25 years. My knowledge of narcissism started from square one. From the very beginning of our relationship, he was transparent about his identity. His whole family, which he saw very infrequently, was going to give me a heads up about him. He admitted to having exhibited the character flaw of narcissism throughout his life, and he went into considerable detail about it.